Happy Place
This feels fucking awful. I am anxious, this is so new to me, this feeling. I cannot get out of my own mind. I'm going back to KK tomorrow (I hope), Just gotta pack. But aduiii. What the fuck. Packing pun sa takut. Semua sa takut. Semua sa procrastinate. Nasib baik sekarang compared to dulu, saya pandai sudah aware pasal semua tu cognitive distortions otak sa. The worlds I created in my own mind, the coping mechanisms i developed. Tidak boleh laa kalau sampai adult life mau fikir begitu. Even before typing this sentence I sempat lagi assess the whole writings. Hahahaha. I'm going back for a short holiday, so I should be happy, right. Prepare myself for my holiday saja dulu. Damn, the pandemic changed me. I'm so anxious to go out. This is temporary but it feels like such a long time. Lol. **** Mentally, I'm also currently on a new phase; healing phase 2: identifying cognitive distortions, emdr therapy, persistent depressive disorder, adjustment disorder. phase 1 was: db